Dear Daughter, You are My Strength

My sweet girl,

Tomorrow is the first day of my new job in a new town and it is also your first day full time at daycare. Both of these things are super big and exciting but for some reason, I can only focus on one of them. I want you to know that I never intended on you being in someone else's care for so many hours of our days. And as I lie in bed right now, snuggling you close and breathing you in, while you nap on our last day together I can feel the pressure and anxiety building inside me. There is so much to prepare for and do before tomorrow when our adventures begin. I should be grateful for these few moments to myself.

But the truth is I don't want to move.

I want to hold onto you tighter and feel your breath against my skin and the thumping of your little heart against my chest. I want to soak in all this love and warmth so when I walk into that daycare tomorrow and place you in your teacher's arms I can have something tangible, even if only a memory, to hold onto. I know I am going to be a blubbering mess-- I will probably even cry more than you. But I also know that this love we share between us will always give me the strength I need to do what I have to in order to make our lives better.

You are my purpose, my motivation, and all the strength I will ever need. I love you.


Love,

Mommy